Time for an update!

so im sitting in my apartment...which i havent left all day... stuffing my face with pancakes.. and i realised that today is the day i would normally leave for camp. Oh dear. it came along so quickly, i knew it was going to be rough and apart of me was going to ignore it. I had even thought about switching my facebook off for a month and keeping as busy as humanly possible. BUT thats abit extreme. I just need to suck it up...i have promised myself that im not going to check the camp website though. I just have this overwhelming feeling that im not meant to be here! my heart is at camp but im here. I know i have to grow up, and there really was no option to go to camp as all my besties arent going back anyway and i gotto move on. I moved out, got a good job now.... but 3 years of leaving australia on the same date and landing in Cleveland to walk through the doors and knowing that the best 3 months are ahead of me is a hard feeling to let go of...

The past few weeks have been pretty standard which is why i just havent had the urge to blog. I wish i had a thousand ridiculously awesome stories but.. alas.. i feel like im just plugging along. although Sarah Holloway ( the first friend i made at camp in 05 and basically the love of my life) came to visit! the airport reunion was seriously from the movies. The Melbourne airport is kinda like the movie Love Actually with the opening doors.. so i stood there for like 30 minutes waiting for her and then all of a sudden she jumped out and we both started screaming and we fully ran to eachother and some people clapped. that was random..anyway we had a great week. We did alot of shopping, spent the night in a flashy hotel, did a road trip to see some penguins and just generally had a great time hanging out. Was so nice to have her around my apartment too! that girl loved to clean..

Oh so something great happened yesterday! i have a mate who ive been friends with since i was 7 and he's the most amazing guitar player i have ever seen. he picks up music without a problem and he loves the same kinda music as me. Anyway i went around to his house with some other guys and we just jammed and made music all afternoon. It was so awesome to just chill out and sing. So i think we're going to make it a regular thing and maybe even try to get some local gigs just for fun. Also yesterday, i went to the hairdresser cos i wanted to be a brunette for winter, but my hairdresser also tricked me into thinking a shorter hair cut would be awesome and now i just dont know... ITS ALL GONE PEOPLE. well... not all gone but its seriously so short.. grow hair GROW!

Work is standard. We're not working on a magazine right now so we're just promoting membership and trying to get new clients to sign up with us. Its a nice change but im looking forward to having some time off. Im now completly aware that my bosses are just telling me what i want to hear so i'll stay with the company. They keep promising me training and growth but nothing happens. They promise new job roles opening up but then they hire outside the company and dont even give us a chance to interview. A few posts ago i mentioned a Key Account Manager role position coming about, and they filled it without even telling us. I got pulled into my bosses office to be told that " your passion is amazing and we are loving watching you grow and learn but you're just not ready yet" and when i ask them how i get ready? they just smile and say " be patient sarah, your time will come" pfft. im ready NOW!

So work gives me a lot of time to think and plan and research what i wanna do. In between all the work of course. And ive decided the following thing....

1- i love sales/promotions/marketing/eventing and i'm going to give it a really red hot go and get serious about it when i choose to settle down.
2- i want to go on a massive adventure. Like, not just camp. And not a mini holiday like my UK adventure thats coming up. But actually save up, pack a bag and do something extremely random. Like work in Hawaii and teach scuba diving ( side note, must learn how to scuba dive) or move to an american city for a year and intern at a magazine. Maybe buy a bus and drive around australia meeting people along the way. I just wanna be on the road doing something.
3- Ive also been thinking that my supposed chosen career isnt really giving back to the world. All i do in life is basically to help myself and i dont think thats going to set me on the right path later on down the road. So i think im going to start getting really involved with the Australian Breast Cancer Research group. They're always looking for people to hold events and raise money and god knows its an issue very close to my family.
4- ive also decided that when i get tired of traveling and marketing gets boring im going to be a pre school teacher. Ive been thinking about it SO much lately. i want to have like 4 career changes in my life anyway so i think that will be career number 2. other options include Tour Guide, Make up Artist, Beauty Therapist or if none of these happen i'll just live off my parents for as long as possible.

So im watching superbad and its making me wanna go back to high school SO much... there are so many outrageous one liners... and i also secretly wanna get nasty with Jonah Hill. Its between Jonah Hill, Jason Segal and Jack Osbourne. Anyway yeah i majorly miss high school. i went to a really small private school so we were all so close. in our senior year we had a common room we'd all mess around in. I have so many amazing memories from high school... like stealing my friends shoes and putting them in the microwave or taking my best friends sport shorts..wetting them and then putting them in the freezer. Ah man i miss not having any worries. I still see the majority of the kids i went to high school with and we party most weekends. There is a group of about 30 of us that see eachother most weekends and you can always guarantee a good time. Everyone is super chilled back and just wants to party and have a good time. Im lucky to have them for sure.

Okay so there are 27 days left until i get to jump on the plane to the UK and im seriously pumped. Im going to book some flights tomorrow and then i think i'll be BESIDE myself.

Alritey well its late now, and i need to go to sleep. Hopefully tonight i will not dream of camp... which i have been for the past few nights.

Love to anyone who reads this..especially a few camp girls who i know read this... i miss you more than ever and i am counting down the days till i can see you all again..
xx

Impulse decisions are the best...

So i did something kind of brash.. i was sitting at my desk wondering about what all my other friends overseas would be doing at that very moment. I do it all the time cos i get so bored sometimes. I check the time in their country and imagine what crazy fun theyre having. Is that lame? i cant help it. anyway i got an email from one of my friends Lillian. She lives in england and i miss her so much its ridiculous. Anyway i was thinking about how much time off i have up my sleeve and wondering how long i could get away for if i was to say... go to london?





so i went to my boss with the proposed idea and.... I HAVE 3 WEEKS OFF AND IM BUYING MY TICKET TO LONDON TOMORROW! it all happened so so fast. but i thought... what the hell? im young, i have some money in the bank and i wanna have another adventure.





I called Lillian and she started screaming and crying. so i think she might be a little excited. I cant believe i am going to see all my english friends. I am beyond excited. 50 sleeps. 50 sleeps. 50 sleeps. I cannot WAIT to get off that 24 hour flight and see lillians face at the other end. I will cry. no doubt.





in other news..... ive been working super hard lately and being a very good girl. At work on time, short lunch breaks, helping out the new staff. trying to prove that im a good employee is hard yakka. Hope its all worth it......

England = SO SOON!

Learning something new every day...

Its May... i cannot believe it...this time last year i was gathering up last minute things for Camp and getting new clothes ready for summer. Instead, i just bought a new winter coat and im sleeping with 2 heavy blakets cos its so freaking cold. I have no immidiate travel plans and all my moolah seems to get going on beer and rent. oh dear.

So the past week was a big one! i work full time and im totally used to it now and i like the stability in knowing how my basic week is planned out. its the extra additions that keep things fun! anyway i learnt a pretty massive lesson at work this week... but let me give the back story first.

At work i am an account manager, i deal with medium level clients and have a medium sized advertising budget i have to reach for every magazine we publish. I like it, im good at my job but i want more! i want bigger clients, which i dont hide from my bosses. The next level above me is the KEY account manager. Bigger clients, bigger budget, more travel ect ect. At the moment i am really good friends with the 2 key accounts. Ann Marie, and Jp. We have lunch together every day and i always ask them for advice on how to handle clients and theyre very good to me. Anyway JP just got promoted to Sales Manager so he's now my boss which is GREAT. anyway this = good news for me as im of course wanting to move up to the key account and start getting serious.

OKAY so this is where i get totally shat on.

Ann marie, although great, has this habbit of asking me to do things for her all the time. She knows ive done a few make up courses so she has asked me to do her make up a few times and i always just go along with it cos we're friends. Then she took it a step further and asked me to do hers and her mothers make up for her brothers wedding...which i did and she didnt even OFFEER to pay or anything. i would have said no, but still. Anyway now its getting out of hand..She asks me almost every day to "run and grab her lunch" or "can you quickly do my hair cos i have a meeting" ect ect. Now here comes the knife to the back. On Friday, i was sitting at my desk and she emailed me saying "ive cleared it with JP, and he said you can have an extra 20 minutes for lunch so you can do my hair for tonight" i sighed... walked over and got started cos im a total sucker. Anyway JP walks into the room and gives me this look that screamed "sarah,what are you doing????" so i walk back to my desk and finished my day. At about 5.30 i walked past my general manager Liz ( who is in charge of the whole company) and she asks me to come in and sit down as she needs to talk about something with me. the first thing Liz says to me is " now im telling you this as your friend, not your general manager, but someone has made an official complaint against you" my heart SANK. apparently JP and Ann Marie had a mini meeting after the day and when JP asked what ann marie thought of the team, she said, and i QUOTE " Sarah is good, but she wastes too much time, always doing peoples hair and messing around with make up" ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? i have never been so angry! how dare she! think about it! she is making a complaint against ME for doing something for HER!? which i NEVER want to do, but do it to keep the peace cos we're friends. When i told my GM that ANN MARIE was in fact was the one that always asked me to do things, she was shocked and immidiately deleted the complaint. That night i had a work function, and ann marie followed me around like a bad smell. She knew i knew...

Backtracking a baby bit... Liz also told me that my name is being thrown around for the Key position. But the only thing standing in my way is my age and the fact that ann marie hasnt said positive things about me behind my back. Liz said i have to prove myself and now is the time to do it. So its nice to know i have Lizs support and i am now aware of who my friends are. Its a tough lesson to learn as i assume everyone is my friend and this is just not the case.

In other news, had my house warming last night and had a pretty great time! My apartment is super small so it was pretty cramped BUT all my favourites came and we boogied and danced the night away. My landlord ended up closing the party down at about 2 cos the noise was too much, but it was so nice to just hang out with my buddies and dress up like zoo animals. 2 of these guys came ( uninvited of course) rocked up and they are absolute losers. Anyway they came in SO DRUNK they couldnt even get in the door without falling over. They knocked over 3 wine glasses and spilt red wine all down my couch. My boys ended up kicking them out, but not before they stole a keg of beer and poured beer down my best mates top. Great fellas.

So there you go. This week i am going to be the BEST employee ever. I am going to be on time, keep kicking the budgets ass and when asked to " quickly do something cute" to ann maries hair, im going to smile and keep walking. I am an advertising account manager, not a freaking hair dresser.

OH, and i spoke to my 2 besties in america again. and it SERIOUSLY looks like they are coming to see me in December!!!! i will pass out...

XOX