Time for an update!

so im sitting in my apartment...which i havent left all day... stuffing my face with pancakes.. and i realised that today is the day i would normally leave for camp. Oh dear. it came along so quickly, i knew it was going to be rough and apart of me was going to ignore it. I had even thought about switching my facebook off for a month and keeping as busy as humanly possible. BUT thats abit extreme. I just need to suck it up...i have promised myself that im not going to check the camp website though. I just have this overwhelming feeling that im not meant to be here! my heart is at camp but im here. I know i have to grow up, and there really was no option to go to camp as all my besties arent going back anyway and i gotto move on. I moved out, got a good job now.... but 3 years of leaving australia on the same date and landing in Cleveland to walk through the doors and knowing that the best 3 months are ahead of me is a hard feeling to let go of...

The past few weeks have been pretty standard which is why i just havent had the urge to blog. I wish i had a thousand ridiculously awesome stories but.. alas.. i feel like im just plugging along. although Sarah Holloway ( the first friend i made at camp in 05 and basically the love of my life) came to visit! the airport reunion was seriously from the movies. The Melbourne airport is kinda like the movie Love Actually with the opening doors.. so i stood there for like 30 minutes waiting for her and then all of a sudden she jumped out and we both started screaming and we fully ran to eachother and some people clapped. that was random..anyway we had a great week. We did alot of shopping, spent the night in a flashy hotel, did a road trip to see some penguins and just generally had a great time hanging out. Was so nice to have her around my apartment too! that girl loved to clean..

Oh so something great happened yesterday! i have a mate who ive been friends with since i was 7 and he's the most amazing guitar player i have ever seen. he picks up music without a problem and he loves the same kinda music as me. Anyway i went around to his house with some other guys and we just jammed and made music all afternoon. It was so awesome to just chill out and sing. So i think we're going to make it a regular thing and maybe even try to get some local gigs just for fun. Also yesterday, i went to the hairdresser cos i wanted to be a brunette for winter, but my hairdresser also tricked me into thinking a shorter hair cut would be awesome and now i just dont know... ITS ALL GONE PEOPLE. well... not all gone but its seriously so short.. grow hair GROW!

Work is standard. We're not working on a magazine right now so we're just promoting membership and trying to get new clients to sign up with us. Its a nice change but im looking forward to having some time off. Im now completly aware that my bosses are just telling me what i want to hear so i'll stay with the company. They keep promising me training and growth but nothing happens. They promise new job roles opening up but then they hire outside the company and dont even give us a chance to interview. A few posts ago i mentioned a Key Account Manager role position coming about, and they filled it without even telling us. I got pulled into my bosses office to be told that " your passion is amazing and we are loving watching you grow and learn but you're just not ready yet" and when i ask them how i get ready? they just smile and say " be patient sarah, your time will come" pfft. im ready NOW!

So work gives me a lot of time to think and plan and research what i wanna do. In between all the work of course. And ive decided the following thing....

1- i love sales/promotions/marketing/eventing and i'm going to give it a really red hot go and get serious about it when i choose to settle down.
2- i want to go on a massive adventure. Like, not just camp. And not a mini holiday like my UK adventure thats coming up. But actually save up, pack a bag and do something extremely random. Like work in Hawaii and teach scuba diving ( side note, must learn how to scuba dive) or move to an american city for a year and intern at a magazine. Maybe buy a bus and drive around australia meeting people along the way. I just wanna be on the road doing something.
3- Ive also been thinking that my supposed chosen career isnt really giving back to the world. All i do in life is basically to help myself and i dont think thats going to set me on the right path later on down the road. So i think im going to start getting really involved with the Australian Breast Cancer Research group. They're always looking for people to hold events and raise money and god knows its an issue very close to my family.
4- ive also decided that when i get tired of traveling and marketing gets boring im going to be a pre school teacher. Ive been thinking about it SO much lately. i want to have like 4 career changes in my life anyway so i think that will be career number 2. other options include Tour Guide, Make up Artist, Beauty Therapist or if none of these happen i'll just live off my parents for as long as possible.

So im watching superbad and its making me wanna go back to high school SO much... there are so many outrageous one liners... and i also secretly wanna get nasty with Jonah Hill. Its between Jonah Hill, Jason Segal and Jack Osbourne. Anyway yeah i majorly miss high school. i went to a really small private school so we were all so close. in our senior year we had a common room we'd all mess around in. I have so many amazing memories from high school... like stealing my friends shoes and putting them in the microwave or taking my best friends sport shorts..wetting them and then putting them in the freezer. Ah man i miss not having any worries. I still see the majority of the kids i went to high school with and we party most weekends. There is a group of about 30 of us that see eachother most weekends and you can always guarantee a good time. Everyone is super chilled back and just wants to party and have a good time. Im lucky to have them for sure.

Okay so there are 27 days left until i get to jump on the plane to the UK and im seriously pumped. Im going to book some flights tomorrow and then i think i'll be BESIDE myself.

Alritey well its late now, and i need to go to sleep. Hopefully tonight i will not dream of camp... which i have been for the past few nights.

Love to anyone who reads this..especially a few camp girls who i know read this... i miss you more than ever and i am counting down the days till i can see you all again..
xx